Worst month ever?

So, I’m gonna level with you guys. There are so many clear and obvious reasons as to why I don’t post on here as much as I once did that it kind of doesn’t make any sense. I mean you ever have a period of time in your life where you feel like someone must truly be out to get you? I have. That time ladies and gentlemen is called June. This June has been such a fucking pain in my ass that if I were given the choice between repeating the month or a hot genital wax while  chewing prechewed gum, I’d truly take the latter 100 times over. Depression is not even remotely the word my good people. However, right now I am on a bit of a mountain,and I’m looking up thinking, “Is the only place that I can go now really up?”, “Am I being stupid for believing that I was ever anything moe than a man child born into this dog eat dog world to be…well eaten?” “What if I am truly just destined to fail?” All these thoughts and more are things that hopped, skipped and jumped across my mind, but after all of those questions, I am still left with one more. “Why the hell am I still here?”

After as much nonsense and pain, and all other sorts of uncomfortable words that I have gone through, Why in the world am I not dead yet? I thought about it and sort of had an angel devil moment with myself.

Angel- You’re not dead yet because you still have a purpose. You may not have a complete game plan for how you are going to get yourself together, but I am confident that you will very soon and you will execute it with ease.

Devil- Wasn’t that sweet? A little touching moment for you, something to cheer you up huh? Wait, wait, let me try, “When you wish upon a star, something bullshit something else” haha, sorry I can’t help myself. Really in all seriousness though, you’re beyond fucked my dude. Accept it.

Angel- Shut up Asshole!!(Yeah my angel is a bit different) Look, you may be going through some rough times right now, but you can handle it. Don’t let anyone tell you any different.

Devil- Yea, don’t let anyone tell you anything different. Even though there are way more people that would say that you are screwed.

Angel-But look at the lives of those people. They aren’t happy themselves. If you really look at it, you can definitely do this. Just think. You’re still alive. You. You Isaiah, you are still here. Just relax, and get your head together and I promise you will be alright.

Then they both just disappear. I can do this. I believe this now. I have no idea how, but somehow, I’m going to come out of this better than I ever have, and to those of you that doubt me, only the future will reveal my words to be true.

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So there may be a few of you wondering where I’ve been. Busy is the word. But let me just tell you what I’m going to talk to you about this weekend. I’m gonna give you guys a post entitled, “My top 5 favorite websites” These sites will be rated based on their responsiveness and aesthetics as well as their formation. I’ll go further into detail when I get back to you guys. However, have a great day and I’ll talk to you then.

What makes a good movie?

I’m 23 years old and in that time, I have seen a number of films. Why ? because as a human being I long for something that can break the monotony that is everyday life. Of course you work towards your goals and things that can change your current living situation but even so, a quick flick can make a person feel a lot better about where they are in life than previously. However my question is, what is it that makes a movie good? Is is the characters? the plot? maybe a little bit of both? Does it have to do with whether or not the characters lives are in any way similar to our own? I figured it’s a Sunday, I might as well take a look into it.

In the beginning as far as I was concerned all that it took to create a good movie was color, sorry baby boomers, a story and about an hour and a half or maybe two. I can even remember going to see the movie “Master of Disguise” as a kid and being like “holy hell mom that was hilarious.” Then I saw it again years down the line and went, “holy hell Mom, that thing was awful.” Now obviously it takes more than just age difference to create a good movie right? Because at the same time, I can go back and watch other movies that I saw as a kid and they will be just as funny or scary or whatever as they were then, now. Of course, that might be because of Nostalgic reasons. Now I would go into the craziness that is Nostalgia but I won’t and the only reason that I won’t is because of another factor that comes into play, in my generation specifically more than in my parents. That factor ladies and gents is jadedness.

Jaded. By definition its when you are now bored with things that used to give you pleasure specifically due to over exposure. Now that we have that in place lets get into how this might have happened over time using one movie genre specifically. Horror.In my parents day, the scariest movie that was ever seen was “The Exorcist”. At the time of its release, there were people that had to literally leave the theater in order to regain composure. They even had people vomiting due to how graphic the film was. My take on it after watching it today..meh. The crappiest horror movie today is at least twice as graphic as that film was, and as far as supernatural junk goes, that’s not enough to scare me. Mainly because.I’ve been seeing things much worse than that for the last 10 years of my life. I think that this same jadedness, transfers into other genres creating a patron that is just not going to be pleased with what he/she sees unless it is A-Mazing.

However, this still leaves out what makes a film good. I know that after watching a film I would like to feel kind of good about life. I know that I like when the film accomplishes a goal for me. So if its  horror movie, I expect to be scared at least 5 times. Or if it’s an adventure flick, I had better not be bored more than twice. Perhaps it’s just a personal thing, but if that’s true then for me, a good film has to take me away from where I am. I have to almost forget that I am even watching a film, if I remember it every now and agin thats fine, but If something happens that is too cliche or boring I will mention it as a thing  that happens in ” these kinds of movies”. I think that at the end of the day, a good film can only be good to a person if they are willing to let it be good. That is not to say that writers and directors are off of the hook though. You guys still suck at times!! However, I will now try and be a little less jaded to see if your movies are tolerable at least. Still, I’ll see you guys next time, have a great day.